Bikemum

It has been a little more than two weeks since Oakley and I returned from our bike journey across the United States. We are gradually re-assimilating into our community, our responsibilities and our routines. But we are not the same. Our bicycle adventure feels like it has changed the lenses through which we see. No joke.

Speaking for myself, I feel 10 years younger. I have energy and enthusiasm that I have not felt since I was 30. I feel as though, if you could peak beneath my skin, instead of blood and guts you would find the fields of Kansas with golden oats blowing in the wind under a clear blue sky. You would find the clear rivers tumulting down from the Cascade Mountains in Oregon. You would find the sound of coyotes yipping and yodeling under the Wyoming night sky. You would find a stranger, offering me shelter, a cup of coffee and a donut in Kentucky and warming up my heart, belly and giving me courage.

As for Oakley, he too is changed. He told me this weekend that he felt that people were treating him like a he was an adult lately, and it made him want to act like one. A neighbor stopped my husband and me on a walk this morning and commented that the biggest change she sees in Oakley, aside from his stature, confidence and strength, is that he doesn’t seem twitchy anymore. He is contained and relaxed and moves with ease and composure. It is true. There is an inner calm in him.

A few times since our return, Oakley has needed a reminder that his behavior was becoming too intense. I have separated him from others at these points and was able to have calm conversations with him. “Is this how you want to be?” Or: “Remember on our trip, how we did it differently?” And he does remember. And he does regroup without becoming deregulated. He wants this. He knows how good it feels to be in control and be granted adult status.

The other day Oakley and I went for a walk to check in with each other. We talked all about the trip. We talked about how being home is sometimes overstimulating. I told him I would do it again next summer if I could, and he said he would do it again when he was 30. I guess I didn’t scar him for life after all.

I wish everybody could have a reboot such as ours every once in a while. Now I face trying to recreate a career and find ways to dig us out of the financial pit that our bike trip created. Yesterday my husband and I sat down at the kitchen table and analyzed the train wreck of our finances. But I don’t feel overwhelmed. I feel like there are endless possibilities, and if I just stay open to them it will work all out.

This Thursday, Oakley and I are giving a slide show about our trip at the local community center. I absolutely detest public speaking, but it seems important to share our tale with everybody who supported us. I will be uncomfortable and a jittery mess, but if I can bike across the country, I can do this. I can do a lot that I never thought I could.

My husband Twain is driving Oakley and me up the New Jersey Turnpike towards home. A heavy rain is rattling against the roof of the car and every few minutes we hydroplane just a little. My knees and elbows ache, and I have callouses and some gravel embedded in my palms. I have lost 20 pounds. Other than that, there is no indication that Oakley and I have just completed a 4,329-mile ride across the United States.

It has only been three days since we coasted to a stop in Yorktown, Virginia, but already I ache to get back on our bikes and see what is around the next corner. Watching the land unfold before us, meeting kind strangers at every stop and focusing our days on the simplest of needs, food, rest, shelter and working together, which helped life make sense. Now these billboards I see out the car window, advertising XXX Erotica at exit 8 and the Honda Car Dealership at exit 7, seem especially crass and off putting.

Today, I feel pulled in many directions. I am longing to see my home and family, beginning to think about what the next phase of my life is going to look like, and already missing our adventure terribly. How is this possible?

Oakley has been very affectionate since we finished biking, and there is a deep feeling of camaraderie between us. I feel pangs that will soon become diluted when we get caught up in our respective lives, but maybe not. Maybe our bond will settle deep within and become the substrate for dealing with future challenges and teenage transitions that we will soon be facing.

This trip has taught us an incredible amount about ourselves, our abilities, the world, people and how they all entwine. It has taught us that the best things come from allowing ourselves to be a bit uncomfortable, a bit scared and a bit reckless. I will never be able to thank enough everyone who has supported us along the way, both emotionally and financially. The kindness we have experienced has been astounding.

On the last evening of our adventure, Oakley and I camped on the side of the James River, 30 miles from the finish line at Yorktown. We made a fire and sat up talking about our highs and lows and appreciating each other’s strengths on the trip. We slept under the stars next to the dying embers. In the morning, the sun rose over the river, turning the early fog pink. “Come on mom. Get up, let’s go!” called Oaks.

I sat up slowly and gazed about feeling quieted by the magnitude of this day. Suddenly, we both heard a roaring clatter coming toward us. Was it a military jet? A huge power boat? We froze and peered in the direction of the sound. “What the hell?” questioned Oakley, a little on edge.

All at once the sky filled with birds. Thousands of grackles descended on our campsite. Truly, thousands. More than I have ever seen. The cacophony they made was so loud that we had to shout over them, which we did, sharing our disbelief at their numbers and noise.

The grackles ousted a couple of hawks and a handful of turkey vultures that began circling overhead. A young raccoon went scurrying across our campsite and dove into a hole halfway up an oak tree right next to our picnic table. The grackle party went on and on. It was a madhouse. We packed up while this symphony was underway. It was like fireworks; it was like a party. It was the perfect send off, and I had tears again.

This trip was harder than I expected and more wonderful than I expected. I would do it again in a heart beat.

If there are any questions about our trip, please comment and I will be happy to respond.

Oakley’s Perspective:

Our last night on the road we stayed at a campsite on a peninsula on the James River. That night in some ways was really sad and and really happy. My mother and I sat by the fire and talked about our highs and lows of the trip and what we appreciated about biking across country. We both agreed that we appreciated how people were so nice and helpful to us. People would offer to fix our bikes. Someone paid for our meal one day. Everywhere we went people were always trying to help us in some way.

The next morning at our lovely campsite we were eating breakfast of granola and milk and coffee when a huge swarm of grackles flew into the trees above us and all started chirping to each other. It was so loud that they started to stir up other animals such as a raccoon, some hawks and some other creatures.

I didn’t really accept that we were done the trip until the next morning, the day after arriving at my grandma’s house. When I woke the next morning I got up and thought to myself, “I really just biked across the country.” Even in the car right now, two days later and on the way back home to Maine, I still can’t believe it.

Now that am literally on my way home I think about all the adventures that I had, and I would like thank my mother for making me bike across America and go through all the hard times together. I wouldn’t have been able do this on my own.

Thank you, mom.

I awake to a deluge of rain hammering on the roof of the camping pavilion that we have set our tent up under. “Oh God,” I think to myself, “I need to put on my cheerleading hat for this one.”

Today is what some cross country cyclists call our last big challenge.* We need to climb Mount Vesuvius, a steep four mile ascent of 3,500 feet. Then we will follow the Blue Ridge Parkway for 35 miles and descend out of the Appalachians and towards the coast of Virginia..

I sneak out of the tent and rustle up some coffee before Oaks stirs, hoping it will help me put on my happy face. The rain is coming down in torrents making the metal roof hammer above me. Needless to say, I have really come to appreciate campground pavilions.

After two strong cups of coffee, I am ready to try my best to put a shine on the day and I wake up Oaks with a promise of hot chocolate. He takes one look around and lays back down. “You have got to be kidding me.”he mutters.

Nevertheless, we persevere through a gloppy breakfast of apple-spice instant oatmeal and pack up our gear. We dottle a little wishing the rain would let up a bit, but this doesn’t seem to be the case.

Just before we head out into the storm, a pick-up truck drives across the lawn and pulls up beside us. It is the owner of the campground. “You all are crazy,” he shouts. “Put those bicycles in my truck and I’ll drive you up that mountain. Nobody should be biking up there in this.” He climbs out of his truck and runs over to our little shelter. “Listen, I done took eight bikers up this hill before. It isn’t anything to be ashamed of. Come on!”

The rain seems to intensify as if on queue. It would be so nice to get a ride. I am so tired and another wet ride up to a cold ridge line sounds torturous. “Thanks, but we can’t,” I say, “that would be cheating.”

“Come on now, it’s not cheating. Your bikes would still be going up that mountain and look at your son.” I look at Oakley and his eyes are bright with hope. He is positively taut with it.

“Mom come on, it is awful out there. Please. No one will know.” I hesitate. It is so cold and wet. “Please.”he begs.

In that moment I waver. I am no Odysseus on a heroic quest. I am much more like Frodo, the Hobbit, a reluctant adventurer. I would like to stay dry.

“This man wants to help us, it would make him feel good.”whispers Oakley. A battle rages inside me. Is the campground owner the devil or an angel? I feel myself waffle.

Then Oakley puts on his bike helmet, and I realize he is expecting me to say no. He needs me to say no. He is leading me with no intention of doing so and has made up my mind. “Thank you so much,” I tell the man, but we have to do this.”

“You all are crazy.”the man mutters as we saddle up and head out into the wet, cold morning. Within minutes my sneakers have become sponges my gloves are sodden and my bangs are plastered to my head.

After a punishing climb, in which I questioned what the chances of a 50-year-old woman having a heart attack were several times, Oakley and I make it to the top. We are cold and wet, but the last climb is behind us. Triumphant, we stand in unison gasping for breath. I meet his eyes and can’t help, but ask, “Do you wish we had gotten that ride?”

“Yes!”he answers grinning ear to ear and I grin back. I would say we both follow our roles very well.

Post script-Although we did make it up Vesuvius Mountain, we didn’t make it down! The rain and the fog and the cold on the Blue Ridge Parkway caused us both to become hypothermic and put us in a dangerous situation. After 20 more miles, a bear hunter rescued us and drove us down the hill. So, we did rely on the kindness of strangers after all. I can’t thank them all enough.

*Thank for all your support Roderick!

Oakley’s Perspective-Week 11 and 1/2. What I Will and Will Not Miss About This Trip.

1. The beautiful landscapes and passing fields of cows over and over.
2. Sleeping outside and hearing everything outside the tent, such as the bone chilling cry of a lone Coyote.
3. Camping in random places such as, city parks, fire station, etc.
4. Passing over a mountain or state line and seeing the whole landscape change in front of my eyes.
5. Looking at the map of the United States and marking off the places we have gone through and seeing how much more we have left.
6. Staying at city parks and meeting other teenagers my age to fool around with and cause trouble.
7. Riding up alongside endless freight trains…unless we are sleeping next to them and then NOT enjoying them at night coming and going every 5 minutes.
8. Going to bed under the night sky full of stars.
9. Scaring the heck out wildlife while I bike by.
10. Chilling at my campsite after a big day of riding.

Things that I am not going to miss from this trip:

1. The headwinds in Kansas and the Rockies.
2. The worries about bears in Yellowstone.
3. The intense Rocky Mountains and Ozarks that just go up and up, over and over.
4. People in cars slowing down when we are riding up a big hill and telling us that it is all up hill from there.
5. The over-loaded trucks that seem to just about almost kill us every time they pass.
6. People trying to tell us we are too late in the season to try to bike across country.
7. Missing home.
8. The DOGS in Kentucky that chased us!
9. Roads that go straight up and don’t have switch backs.
10. Only talking to my mom for three months straight!

When I think about this bicycling adventure across the United States, I feel as though I have been on three different epic quests: a quest to see and understand the world better, an internal quest to see what I am made of, and a parenting quest.

The first quest has been the most enjoyable; experiencing the deserts, the small towns, the magnificent rivers, the wildlife and the people, all strikingly different and strikingly the same.

I have learned how the land across North America is shaped and how this land holds different ecosystems that all encompass their own worlds, pressing up against each other and mixing together along the edges. There are little connections between them of migrating animals and flowing waterways, but for the most part they are separate and distinct and change from one hour to the next as we pedal through. There is a startlingly amount of variety in life and landscape in this country.

I have also been lucky enough to interact with all manner of people within this diverse landscape and have been able to see how people seem to mimic the land around them; the leathery, tough desert dwellers, the quiet, hidden people living in the hollows between shady hills, and the expansive warmth of those in the prairies.

I have found that most everyone is kind if given the opportunity, no matter what their ideologies or lifestyles. When we have needed help it has always been there. We have had lunch paid for by strangers, rides to bike shops when our bikes have broken down, ice cold bottles of water and snacks handed to us as we cycle by, offers of lodging, money given to us and countless cheers, thumbs up and friendly honks. It has been incredible to experience this support and generosity, both at home from friends and from perfect strangers. It really, truly does fuel us.

The second quest I have been experiencing is a personal quest. This trip has been incredibly demanding physically and at times emotionally. The hills have been huge, the winds fierce, the dogs scary, and feeling as though I don’t know what the next day may hold has been exhausting. I have had to push myself farther than I ever have. I have had to fling myself into the unknown over and over. I know a lot of people have successfully completed a bike tour across America with panache, but for me it has been deeply challenging. I have also been homesick and longed for my husband, my other children, my dog and the safety and security of my own bed. I am interested to see how it shapes me. I can’t tell you now because the challenges are still coming.

The third quest has been a motherhood quest. Spending 12 weeks with my 16-year-old son in such an intense way has been a psychological trip unto itself. I am often quick to brag about his physical gifts and at the same time disparage his behavior, but today I can wholeheartedly say that I think he is amazing. What he is accomplishing is nothing short of incredible.

For 70 days he has woken up beside his mother (hard enough in itself), packed up our tent on his own, and then hit the road for 6 to 8 hours of cycling, averaging 60 miles a day and carrying more weight than his dear old ma. He has climbed all the hills, eaten all the nasty food, traversed all the windy deserts, slept on all the concrete and sodden ground, all without bailing out on me or outright refusing to go further. He has told me endless stories (specifically, every single superhero movie in detail) to entertain us both. He has encouraged me when I despaired after losing our way again and again, once even taking us 20 miles out of our way. Most people would have brained me!

Sometimes, he loses his good humor and lapses into blaming me for all wrongs, but it is always short lived, and he always comes around quickly. He even apologizes. On top of all this he has been doing schoolwork, math, writing, and reading, and he has ended every single day by putting up our tent. That is a tremendous gift, trust me.

It is a great challenge to spend this much time with any one person, and he does drive me crazy. I know that I drive him crazy, too, but in this moment of clarity, I just can’t believe that he is doing this. That we are doing this. That we seem to have found a way.

A little less than two weeks left, if all goes well. Some big mountains, big dogs, and hopefully a big finish.

Oakley’s Perspective Week: 11

This week has a list of the three craziest things that have happened on the whole trip.

Number one: First the dog update. The dogs here in Kentucky can be really scary, but if you stop your bike when they start chasing they realize that you’re a human and not a deer or something exciting to chase. We have had a few scary moments where dogs have been pretty threatening to us, but we have never been bitten or had to spray a dog with our bear spray. Today we were going through a very quiet little town when a little party of dogs showed and followed us to the edge of town like dog parade. They were barking their heads off the whole time. We have also noticed that some dogs seem neglected and abused. People put their dogs in tight. stinky kennels and leave them there or on chains all day.

Number two: A couple days ago we took a day off in Berea, Kentucky. We camped out behind a fire station and the next morning we went to a lovely café in the morning and spent the rest of the day at the library and walking around. Berea has a lovely college where it was free for students, but they have to work for their tuition by making crafts and selling them. The money does not go to students, it goes to the school because they’re paying off their tuition. Berea College is a super wealthy school, they say it’s like Harvard.

Anyway, on the morning of our departure from Berea, we heard that there was a murder and kidnapping suspect at large in the next county that we happened to be biking through. They closed all the schools. My mom did not know what to, but we figured that the man would be hiding, not wondering around seeking bikers to kill, so we went for it. It was stressful.

Number three: On the same day we were worrying about the murder suspect, we were biking down the road and I passed a trashcan that had meows coming from it. I quickly turned backed and got off my bike to look into the trashcan. Looking up at me were too stupid-cute kittens trapped in a deep metal trash can. I could not believe my eyes. The two kittens looked at me with their beautiful blue eyes and meowed. I scooped them up and showed them to my mom. We couldn’t figure out whether the people were trying to get rid of them or they just got stuck in the trashcan. It was so heartbreaking to leave the babies behind but there was nothing else we could do.

Once we passed through the Ozarks we crossed the Mississippi and came into this town called Chester, Illinois. It happens to be were Popeye was “born”. The original creator was born there and the comic is based on the area and the local people. The town was filled of statues of all the characters.

That night we stayed this shack which was supposed to be the Bike Hostel for people biking through.We were grateful for the place to stay and the showers, but the spot was more like a little closet. We didn’t know that we were passing through Illinois until we actually got there, but other than the shack we stayed in, Illinois was really beautiful . We biked through lush tree filled forests and there were little hills that were not too steep.

A couple of days ago we got mixed up and kind of lost, we could not figure out were our campground was so we asked someone for directions and they sent us down this back road that went on forever. They had told us that it was “less than a mile down that road”. Five miles later we finally came across a little town which had a festival going on that night. We parked our bikes by the Ohio River and went out to the festival and ended up having a great time.We ate a dinner of all fried food.

The next day we crossed the Ohio river into Kentucky. At first I was dreading the shear fact of even biking through there because you know…the DOG thing. I didn’t realized Kentucky could be so beautiful That night we ended up staying in this nice church hostel. The people were really friendly and they had pool tables, air hockey and ping-pong tables plus showers, laundry and a kitchen. We found out the dreadful dogs are “friendly” and if you just stop your bike they will realize that you are a human not something to chase.

Tonight, I am sitting in the basement of a Baptist church in western Kentucky. I am reclining on a couch, full bellied, cool and comfortable and tremendously thankful for their hospitality. In this moment of repose, I am trying to pare down this week’s adventures into a short blog post, but when I begin to speak about our trip it feels akin to trying to cork a whistling kettle.

I could tell you about crossing the Ozarks in Southern Missouri. How the full-body exertion required to climb those acute hills felt similar to child-birth. While climbing them, I lapsed into Lamaze breathing several times. The sweat poured down my cheeks and hung, beard-like off my chin. I begged for ice chips. I became nonverbal. I did think the Ozarks were incredibly beautiful, but I never need to do that again.

I could tell you about descending onto the Mississippi River Flood Plain after the Ozarks. How the land flattened out before us, beckoning us to come, coast along and relax along the wide, muddy river. How we rode up on levees and looked down on miles of farm fields and flooded forests filled with frogs. How we idly watched 1/4-mile long barges slowly maneuvering up and down the river. The pull to continue south with the the Mississippi proved too much, and it put us into a contented, self satisfied stupor. We rode for hours with a glorious tailwind before we realized we had missed our turn to the east by 15 miles. The ride back up the river was not as much fun.

But instead, I will tell you about last night. Oakley and I were finishing up a 74-mile day. Evening was coming and we found ourselves on a back road on the Illinois/Kentucky border (the Illinois side of the Ohio River) with no idea where to go. The campsite that was supposed to be there wasn’t. We were exhausted and losing our good humor. I began searching for a house in the hopes of asking someone if we could stay in their back yard.

From up ahead I sensed activity and decided to push on just a wee bit more. As we rounded the corner we were met by the answer to our hopes and dreams. There before us lay the small town of Rosiclare, population 350, the entirety of which were out in the street celebrating Fluorspar. What is Fluorspar you might ask? I soon discovered that it is a mineral found in many important things, including fluoride, that it’s the state mineral of Illinois, and that the town had been founded on its discovery beneath the soil many years ago. Rosiclare was once referred to as the Fluorspar Capital of the World.

There, by the side of the Ohio River, we soon forgot our aches and pains and ate fried food, lemon shake-ups, and funnel cake as we watched the town’s bike parade, pet parade, golf cart parade, and street dance party, complete with red, blue, and green spinning disco lights. The party went late into the night. Way past our bedtime.

As Oakley and I crawled into our tent and nestled into our sleeping bags in the Rosiclare city park by the side of the Ohio River, in the midst of all the other Fluorspar revelers, we both felt tired and contented. This is what our trip is all about. Who knows what will happen tomorrow.

Oaks will write his blog in the next few days…he is tired!

This week my dad flew into Wichita, Kansas to bike with us for the week. While we were biking, my mother and I were annoyed to see my dad biking very fast on his not so heavily weighted bike. He barely carried anything, and he kept acting like it was easy!

A couple of days after he had joined us, we were biking along and I (of course) crashed again from hitting the back of my mother’s bike while trying to point out a big frog on the side of the road. I ended up sprawled across the ground and my bike wound up in a ditch in the bushes on the other side of the road.

While I collected myself, my dad offered to get my bike out the bushes and trade bikes with me for the last seven miles of the ride. He could barely pull my bike out of the ditch! He complained that it weighed as much as a tank. “Tank” is my bike’s new name.

Through the week of my dad visiting, he spent the whole time going really fast because he barely had any weight on his little ten speed bike. He also only liked to go 40-50 miles a day. It was an easy week.

Now we have reached the Ozark mountains and have quickly realized that as soon as my dad leaves my mom and I are going to hit the worst of them. He is so lucky.

The Ozarks are rolling hills that are absolutely straight up and down with no switch-backs again and again. They are the worst. Hopefully, we will be out of them in four days.

We only have about four weeks left and then we are done. I can’t believe our progress and I thank my mom for all the great adventures we have been through even though there is more coming our way.

Leah’s Perspective- There are Still Some Potatoes Left

This week, as we finished biking through Eastern Kansas and began our journey into the Ozark Mountains, I fell apart, physically and emotionally. I truly believe it is because I could.

The night before my husband, Twain joined us for a week of riding was like Christmas Eve. As I lay in my bed at the Comfort Inn in Newport, Kansas waiting for him to arrive on a 10:30 pm flight I was overwhelmed with excitement.

Finally, after seven weeks, I was going to have an adult partner to share all my responsibilities, decisions and parenting with. What fun we would have! How much I had missed him! Oakley and I had rushed to get here pushing ourselves through 3 weeks of 60 mile plus day and over the Rockies and we had made it. All there was to do was lie in this cozy bed and wait.

So I waited. Happy and content and…chilled?

Finally, Twain arrived. But, as he climbed into bed and cozied up beside me, rather than feel elated, I felt something was amiss.

It must have come from a combination of feedlot nasties blowing in the wind, wearing sweat sodden clothes for weeks at a time and exhaustion, but as he gleefully announced that he was here I murmured, “We have one small problem.” in reply and felt my fever skyrocket.

This began our week together. As strong as I have been, I was that weak. Twain cooked, set up the tent, bantered with Oaks and cleaned the dishes while I sat watching the goings on like a queen. All I was in charge of was pedaling.

Kansas and Missouri cooperated with my illness and all that fierce, hot, dry wind that had been plaguing us abated. The land became soft, and green filled with cows, turtles, frogs and beautiful horses. The small towns we we traveled through provided pie, Twain only wanted to do 50 miles a day. Perfect.

This morning as Twain and I biked away from each at the Fall Festival in Fair Grove, Missouri, he to the airport and Oakley and I into the heart of the the Ozarks, tears were squirting out of my eyes. It is not that I don’t want to be doing this, it is that I had a taste of comfort and care and it made me wicked homesick.

Oakley, was trying to cheer me. “We only have less than a month left! We are going to be fine!” Home feels like a mythical place at this point, but I am going to trust Oaks and rediscover my strength. Home will be waiting.

Yesterday a long, grey haired man leaned out of his old, Chevy pick up truck and called out a warning. “There are hills coming up, and some of them are going to be severe!”

We got this.

Since Oakley and I have descended from the Rocky Mountains we have been drowning in wind. It has been in the mid 90’s everyday, and the wind has been blowing a sustained 20 or more knots with gusts up to 50.

It has been hard to catch our breath as we slog across the plains. Dirt and dust blow up from the overcultivated fields and feed lots, and a haze of yellow grit has formed over the land, reducing visibility.

This grit burns our eyes, gets in our ears, parches our throats and covers our skin with a coat of grime. I have a sneaking suspicion that it is heavily laden with pesticides.

Our tent shudders and flaps in the wind all night long and does not lend itself to a solid night’s sleep. We have been sleeping in city parks every night in towns that feel ghostly because everyone else is hiding inside.

Oakley looks like he has a drug problem. His eyes have become squinty and red, and he refuses to wear his sunglasses. His bottom lip is split and swollen, and he is refusing to wear sunscreen on it. Why, you might ask? Because I asked him to. This brings me to my second vexation about the wind. It gets inside you. It tunnels in your ears and up your nose and wreaks havoc on your brain and your spirit.

Everyday that the wind blows, Oakley and I get a little more on each other’s nerves. I am annoying. I speak annoyingly, chew annoyingly and, according to Oakley, I have suddenly become deaf. Oakley is also annoying. He talks too much, steps on the tent and has bad manners. He is 100% 16 years old, which is annoying unto itself. I know this is just the wind working its wicked ways and, luckily, Oakley knows it too.

In many ways this is a more difficult challenge than the passes we have ascended. This is grueling, solitary, lacks glory and is boring. But, when I look up and see Oaks slowly, but methodically, plugging along through the wind and heat, alone in his thoughts hour after hour because the wind makes it too hard to talk, I am sure there is good in this stage, that this too is important.

We have taken to retreating to town libraries every afternoon and reading for hours. We fantasize about ice tea constantly. We seek out mom and pop movie theaters, and we go for walks when the evenings cool. And at least once a day we forgive each other for our snappy behavior and acknowledge that we are in this together.

The wind is supposed to quiet tomorrow, and I am hoping to be able to look out upon these beautiful plains without squinting. To absorb the incredibly wide expanse of land that is far larger and flatter than I have ever comprehended before.

Yesterday, I overheard a local woman in Scott City, Kansas, say as she blew into the library, “If there is one woman in Kansas who doesn’t use hairspray, I don’t know her! It is the only way to survive!” Maybe if the wind doesn’t die down we will try that next. It can’t hurt.

Post script- The wind has died down. Kansas is lovely after all.

Oakley’s Perspective-Week 8

This week we have been biking though the high plains of Colorado and Kansas. The landscape has gone from dry to really humid and we are surrounded by four kinds of crops, corn, milo (which is for feeding cows), soy beans and sunflowers. A day or two ago we passed by a bunch of feeding yards with tons and tons of cattle. The feeding yards are not the beautiful thing about Kansas.

When we were getting close to Alexander, Kansas, I got another flat. We stopped at a little rest area and tried to replace it when we realized that all of our spare tubes were popped (new out of the box), and we had to stay the night at the little rest area just off the highway. The next morning we had to hitch hike to the nearest big town to get my bike fixed. It turns out that my bike had a lot of problems. The sprocket was loose, one wheel was untrue, a brake pad was falling off and the gear shift cable was breaking. It was lucky I had that flat.

As soon as we passed this point in Kansas the landscape change for the hundredth time. It was the same corn, milo, soybeans and sunflowers except it was a lot greener and not dry.

We had gone off route to get the town with the bike shop, and we had to get back on route. This took a while. We took a long, back country road called Rattlesnake Alley. It is 58 miles long with no houses or shops. We ran out of water on the way. I was miserable. Finally, we came to a house, and we asked the nice people if they could give us some water. They gave us six bottles of ice cold water that they save for bikers.

When we got to a town that night we were exhausted and fell into our hot sweaty sleeping bags, which, I have to say, is not the most pleasant thing at all.

We have made the halfway mark of our adventure. We have ridden 2,100 miles (half of our total 4,200) in six weeks (half our intended 12). We have crossed the highest point in the Rockies (Hoosier Pass at 11,539 feet) and have now descended onto the flats of Colorado and western Kansas. We also did some math yesterday and figured out that we have climbed over 43,000 feet in elevation.

The truth is, I am amazed at our progress. This is hard. Our bodies are becoming machines, and food has truly become fuel, with no fuss. You should see the things we eat! Convenience-store living at its best–nothing highbrow about it. If it is going to fill the void within us and give our muscles and attitudes something to work with, it is going in.

We bike until we are exhausted and feel that there is no way we can continue beyond the next bend, and then we turn around it and meet a headwind that will stay against us for the next 10 miles, and you know what? We do it. Of course we do. And then we sleep. Just about anywhere. City parks, campgrounds under streetlights, with trains rushing past. We pay no mind, because sleep is like fuel, and we just take it. We have both found that we have more inside us than we see thought.

The challenges have only been partly physical. We have dealt with many mechanical issues and find ourselves working on some busted part of our bicycles nearly daily. This has made us come eye to eye with how we handle frustration. Oakley and I have had many conversations that begin, “Is this attitude helpful?” There is a lot of learning going on and truthfully, Oakley has become much more in control of his emotions then he ever has ever been before.

There have also been lessons concerning anxiety and living in the moment. If we look at the entirety of this trip, let alone what we may face in the next two days, it can seem pretty overwhelming. Chasing dogs, headwinds, tall passes, lack of services, busy highways, rain, and on and on. It can make us forget the joy of the pass we are whooshing down or the beauty of the evening sky as we sit by our tent. We have both learned that now is not worth sabotaging for the fear of later. Oakley helps me with this, and he often chastises me when I worry about what is to come.

After crossing Hoosier Pass and feeling mighty high in our socks, we were caught off guard by the beauty of the mountains — our confidence and our exhaustion — and we had our first near miss. I will not go into it, because I am sure Oakley will in his blog post. This trip is not foolproof, and it is dangerous. We were both very scared.

When we recovered, we continued biking against a head wind for quite a while, still shaken and emotionally wrought. When we finally arrived at our designated campsite for the evening, a state park in Pueblo, Colorado, we were turned away. The next site was 10 miles away. It was the lowest we have felt.

I called my husband Twain to seek adult counsel, and he was fairly horrified about what our day had entailed. He said, “You can come home, you know…. You don’t have to do this… You guys have done enough….” I was shocked. Quitting hadn’t occurred to me. Later, I mentioned it to Oakley.

“Papa mentioned that we could quit if we wanted.” Oakley’s forehead wrinkled and he looked at me like I was out of my mind.

“We aren’t doing that!” he responded. “Papa’s crazy.”

So on that note, I would have to say that this trip is perfect. Sometimes it feels magical, and sometimes it feels grueling. We are both aware that we would never see the beautiful places we have seen; the tiny mountain towns; the clear tumbling streams; the bison and elk roaming the wilds; and the kind people, if we didn’t cart ourselves up these passes on our bikes. Equally important is the understanding that Oakley and I have that and we wouldn’t be learning these lessons if it was easy. We are so lucky.

Oakley’s Perspective: Highs and Lows

Ok, so my mom probably has told you guys about this, but on Friday the 13th I believe I almost died. We were biking down a fairly busy road when an overly loaded truck came up behind us. My mom saw the big truck and called to me, “Stopping!” so we could get out of the way, but she was not loud enough for me to hear. I had turned my head to look at what was hulking behind me. When I turned my head back around I crashed into my mom’s slowing bike and tumbled right in front of that giant over-loaded truck. THAT, my friend, was the scariest moment in my LIFE.

Anyway, now for the high. My high is getting out of the Rockies. We did our last huge pass a couple days ago right outside Breckenridge, Colorado, the pass was really hard, but it was worth it.

We are halfway done with this trip. In no time we will be across Kansas, and then into Missouri and Kentucky, which I’m not excited about at all. Kentucky dogs, here I come. I feel really happy that we have gotten this far, and I know that there is no turning back now that we have made such good progress.

It is twilight, and I am walking through the Wyoming desert alone. Oakley has chosen to stay behind and read his book. He is exhausted after another 65-mile day biking. Today we traveled through the Wind River Reservation to Jeffrey City in southwest Wyoming. I just feel the need to stretch my legs before calling it a night.

It is funny that Jeffrey City calls itself a city. It is a cluster of beaten up trailers, a rock shop, a gas pump, and a tiny motel, with us the only guests. Usually, the towns in this area are centered around a river or some sort of moisture that creates a green oasis, but not this one. There is no water here and no trees, just miles of sagebrush, dry prairie grass, and rocky promontories.

Through the encroaching darkness, a few miles away from this small cluster of buildings, deep in the vast desert dusk, I can see the distant glow from the light in a lone trailer, nestled under a rocky outcropping. What are they doing out there? I wonder. It is incredibly isolated. It must be lonely. What a different life from mine.

The wind seems to blow continually in this area, and, while biking, this is a huge nuisance. Tonight, though, as my hair whips around my face, I welcome it. It is cool and soothing. I stroll down a sandy road that seems to lead nowhere. The sand under my flip-flops pillows my feet.

After Oakley’s constant chatter, I embrace this moment of solitude. The quiet is a balm to a day that was filled with intensity: sweat, sun, wind, Oakley’s many moods, trucks whizzing by. I breathe in the silence.

It wants to rain, and the clouds filling the sky are dropping their loads only to have them evaporate before the rain reaches the ground. Huge curtains of rain cover the sky above me, but only a few drops make it down and tingle on my cheeks.

The air is heady with the smell of sage, and it seems as though the leaves of the plants are releasing all their fragrance in hopes that it will entice the rain to try a little harder to reach them.

Along the side the road, there is a herd of antelope. The males are standing proudly with their tall, black pronged antlers, looking at me quizzically and sizing up whether I am a threat or not. The females stand close by their young, also watching, some springing away as I approach, showing me their fluffy white behinds that seem to glow in the darkening night.

A fox runs across the road 10 feet in front of me. His eyes catch mine for an instant, and then he is gone.

It has become truly dark, and I should head back. Oakley will worry. Before I turn around, I peer once more out at the trailer set against the rocks so far from this little town. Someone is in there. They live here and can experience this every night. I think I do understand what they are doing out here.

As I walk back, I am filled with a deep calm and a longing to have more of this in my life. The next day we will be hammered by a swirling sand storm, winds gusting to over 60 mph, crushed by traffic on Interstate Route 80. Road construction will close the shoulder and force us to ride shoulder to shoulder with semis barreling along at 75 or 80 mph. This night, though, in this hardscrabble town, there is momentary peace in our lives, the kindness of a solitary motel keeper, and the comfort of a puzzled herd of antelope.

Oakley’s Perspective: Best Day Off: Week 6

Today we took a day off in Saratoga, Wyoming. Yesterday was so stressful because of high winds and because my front wheel fell off. I wasn’t hurt, but we had to hitchhike to the nearest town for repairs. Once back on the road, we were hit by a powerful sandstorm while we were biking on the highway.

Saratoga is a cool town, though, and we went to the community gym to find people to hang out with. I met a boy named Seven. He asked if I could ride dirt bikes and ATV’s at his house, and in a moment of weakness, my mother said yes.

First we went to his house. We rode his ATV all over the hills of Saratoga, doing jumps and drifts and tearing it up. Then we had to check-in with my mom. We met her at a river that is fed with hot springs and has little rocky pools on the sides. We floated down the river and into the pools. One was 118 degrees!

My mom let us disappear again so we did. We went back to Seven’s house, and while I was making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich I looked down and a four-foot lizard was at my feet! (An iguana.) In his backyard was also a cage full of 10 two-week-old kittens. Seven locked me in with them!

After that he took me to his grandfather’s house where his dirt bikes are. His grandfather looks just like Gus McCrae from Lonesome Dove. We rode dirt bikes everywhere. They are not hard to figure out.

I asked Seven to get my gloves out of my bike bag, and he accidentally set off my canister of bear spray. That was exciting.

Before I left to go back to our campsite, Seven’s father came home from hunting. I was standing in the front yard, and he got out of his truck with a rifle. “Get out of my yard!” He shouted. Then he smiled. He was joking.

It was the best day off ever.